Monday, August 31, 2009

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just finish eating mac at this hour, thanks baby for helping me to order * i'm feeling so moody & i just smoked 1 stick :( i'm missing u` u stop sms-ing me at 1.05am.. somehow i'm worried now.. that u got caught using ur another phone =/ or are u sleeping soundly?! cus, when i call ur hp; it was disconnect ._. sighs~

因为太爱你,所以会掉眼泪

2:05 AM

Sunday, August 30, 2009


went town with baby on saturday, from far-east to galleria & last ION.. bought a LV wallet for him.. cus, i knew all along he likes.. initially wanted to get a (Seiko) watch for him * but the end i guess this is still the best & another reason is " to change out the previous wallet his ex bought for him" :) of cus the price is also nice ($615) !! first time.. i bought a LV for "him" & is out first visit to (ION).. actually, the money i could splurge on myself.. cus there's alot of stuffs i want to buy :( but it's okay.. what matters most " is his happy " whatever things i like, yes i did mention to u, but in my heart i never request u to buy for me! thou, u told me it's just a matter of time! ( today i saw the limited edition GUCCI perfume, i do wish to buy but i bought a (cross zippo) for u that cost : $70 at bugis.. somehow, i wish u don't smoke so much! it's my fault to ask u back to smoke and now u are addicted, saw u bought 2 Marlboro back camp + i gave u my viceroy =/ cus i bought "UNO"
spend on Sk-ll facial treatment clear lotion & a simple red spag top.. yesterday, went to watch movie at "great world city" - final destination.. with baby,roy , shan , melvin & his bro.. aftermaths, we bought roy to " spize" their prata bomb with cheese" is nice!! friday night - bowling with wei-jian & late supper with bf, we had dim sum :) he cooked for me "cheese hotdog with prata" & cheese macoroni.. taste nice! but, i'm someone who love cheese but not so much of it! cus, it's fattening!

on that day, baby is not roll & bowl is throw the ball :x
as for me, i was lucky to strike X the first play
but continuously i sucks ._.
sent him off to camp just now & i went home =/ i do feel like going out, but just duno where should i go in this hour; & i'm feeling moody :( time always pass so fast ,when i'm with him.. & sadly his hand-phone will be confiscated by his "fk-up" officer everyday 8pm! wad's wrong with chatting in the night?! is it an offence? i think his just a no-life old fellow that has nobody to chat with him.. tsk, horrible shit! last friday, it's my 1st time in cab waiting for bf 30mins+ while the meter is still jumping; went out the cab to have a puff with taxi-uncle.. why the delay!? it's bcus of that " officer " again -.-

[ this session here is gonna be (emo) again.. ]

i read ur post , mebe what ur friend say is right.. w/o me perhaps u're a outstanding sergeant.. & as for me.. w/o u in my life i duno who i am now! with me, u got to sacrifice ur sleep to acc me at night, insufficient sleep causes u to get scolded by ur officer etc.. yes, u can't accompany me whenever i need u , u could not afford some stuffs i wanted * u dare not splurge on me cus mebe u feel that i would "run away" u're afraid to lose me! & therefore u treasure every moments we are tgt~ u ask me " are u worth" my answer is "yes" but at times i do have doubts whether are u just using my money! sighs, i'm sorry to have think this way; but u make me feel such way at times * =/ i'm moody at ur hse.. u thut is bcus of "money" but it's not.. u don't understand me` if so, i would ask u to pay me back & buy my stuffs.. every month take $100 from u, dresses; heels everything i would just bring u go & ask u to pay. why not?! but did i? heh, sometimes i feel that i'm so different from the past me! if i'm back to single, i guess i would be fine now! perhaps......

Thursday, August 27, 2009

cramps

finally tmlo u're able to book out :( this few days without u, we are almost quarreling everyday over "little" things.. which is not necessary at all.. & my mood was so bad; i can't stand ( holding on the phone, but ur not speaking) it does really piss me off.. my menses was early 1wk =/ and my stomach hurts so badly that i need to eat the pill again :'( will be celebrating my 21st b'day this 12sept; & my own actual birthday which is on the 16sept- i guess he is not able to book out! but is okay, jocee gonna count down with me! perhaps, i'm going to pub!! hah, drink drank drunk which i'm not supposed to; cus , i got to take care of myself when he is not ard with me.. this what i promised him (: gonna help melvin to work for his company in the mid sept ( admin) pay & working hours not bad, shell try it out.. & i wan to book my basic theory.. hopefully to get my driving license next yr?! thou, i somehow prefer being ride out, den a driver! ha, but still learning is not a bad thing ;) i'm only afraid of "parking" .. gonna watch the movie " final destination" with bf, melvin&shan this saturday..

( feel like drinking this weekend again) ._.

i hate to quarrel
i hate to see u being so upset at times
i hate the feeling when ur not by my side


Wednesday, August 26, 2009

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his is in camp for 4 days, till friday his able to book out; sometimes hearing him telling me that how stress he is in camp, being fk by officer etc.. & for the pass few days my mood was not really good too, & i vent my anger on him :( sorry ! i'm sucha lousy gf , i should have understand ur situation.. (pls don't smoke so much too ) i wish u just can have more "trust& faith " in our r/s .. or issit being with me u feel "unsecured" ?! i'm starting to change..thou i still smoke, drink but other factors .. u knew i "did" i am letting go.. boy, ur really a nice guy ( only at times, i would say ur not initiative enuf but the love u showered me.. do really make me feel ( happy) to have u in my life.. cus, i never had a bf that i would be so honest to say every lil single things and ur the one; i promised not to lie even if my heart changes & i have fallen for someone else i will tell u (: u always told me that " ur used to it , nobody loves u " or mebe i shell put it this way ( i love u but, not as much as u do ) the things u have done, i know u put in effort * money can buy materialistic stuffs & majority of girls prefer "clothes, heels, bags etc " i'm one too! but, i love everything u gave me x3 my ex usually used money to buy what i want , ur exceptional * u do cards , medicine box & alot of things that is now displaying on my table (: i would just smile & tink of u this silly boy :) can't believed that ur younger than me by 1 yr and ur thinking is more matured den me.. we've been tgt for 4mth+ there's alot of things u knew abt me & wad am i thinking.. sadly to say " i still duno much abt u " ur ring size, shoe size , what u're thinking " it seems to slip off my mind * whenever u question me =/ this shows that i dint put in "effort" at all .. or i feel that is just necessary for u to know me.. & tat's all .. i'm so shelfish!! wad u say abt is right, i only know how to think of myself .. wad matter most is " i happy" , i would not considered how u feel.. i guess u've been suffering too, trying to be "perfect" in many ways just to please me !! ur afraid to lose me, u have been trying ur best to accompany me , u smoke bcus of me, u have been quietly enduring my temper & sms-ing me everyday telling me how much u miss me !! and do u know i miss u too! perhaps ur right, this period of time ( we will know, how "strong"is our r/s ) and are we able to be tgt till ur course end ?! think further more ( ur ORD next yr (sept) am i still be tgt with u? or by than we're frens?! sighs, i dare not think so far.. yesterday went to have dinner with darrick at chomp; his another good guy * he took cab down , scare i'm hungry .. hahs, he told me that he hate ppl close to him "smoke" but still.. i'm just social :) aftermaths, met eileen to boat quay ( chamber) drank the left-over bottle.. get to know some frens at there.. keith open red wine for us to drink & i went shebang to drink with zhi-wei frens & i saw vanessa (: eileen was kinda of drunk cus she drank quite alot, sabo by gary .. ha, but she's okay after she puke.. zhi wei sent us to take cab, back home at 3.40am ... terry is suppose to join us, but his sick ._.

2 days more & i will be able to see u :)
i will be waiting for u x3

Monday, August 24, 2009


random updates :

ღ met up with jocee & Dan last wk to bugis ( bought a specs) ღ
ღ dental appt last sat , next month i can remove my braces!! :D ღ
after 2 yrs & 4 mths ._. finally !!
ღ did manicure ღ fish & co for dinner ღ
ღ watched the movie " turning point" with terry,shan, melvin, his bro&wife ღ
the world is so small, dint know that terry knew his brother.. lol~
the weather was so unpredictable* when we step out
it started to rain heavily.. trap with terry at bishan for 1hr+
till 3am, we decided to go; it's my 1st time sitting on people's bike & it's raining
shivered along the way back, cus it's so cold ._.
was drench, went back home to get changed & meet eileen ard 4am..
chit chatted till 5.30, terry sent me home..
i was so sleepy

terry's bike :) my fav colour " purple "
thanks for riding a slow speed for me, cus u knew i was scare.. hahas
ღ ytd met up with darrick, went town to get my lash glue & i bought a dress ღ
aftermaths, cab back to meet ck & eileen at serangoon for dinner..
ღ boat quay with ( jocee & eileen) drank GIN ღ
sis was kinda of drunk, don't drink so much next time ok?!!
we shell drink "cocktail" i think u would prefer that (:
zhi wei taught us a new card game! :)
reached home @ 4am..
ღ bf is gonna stay in camp till this friday =/ sighs, i miss him!! ღ
kuai dian chu lai !!



Wednesday, August 19, 2009

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nothing, n0thing @ all..

Sunday, August 16, 2009

part-ii

Jennifer 21st b'day @ costa sand (:
ITE-NITEC (yi-lin, me, michelle )

ytd chalet was packed; & the paiseh thing was we went to the wrong unit
 from F to S block -.- mich was the most funniest.. she thut is at downtown east;
she put 1dollar in & ended up in F block seeing
"eh" why got Indian ppl sia.. LOL!!
 i guess jennifer enjoyed herself ytd, despite being sabo by her frens :x
happy birthday my dear :)

* before heading down to downtown, me & bf went to T.M shopping *
i bought a " LANEIGE snow crystal dual base " - $55
bf bought his skin care products- Clinique & LANEIGE - $200+
& got alot of freebies :)) + a white bag..
he seldom splurge on such stuffs; but, actually i influence him :x
and now he have alot of " steps to do everyday"
cleanser, toner, essences, moisturizer, sunblock, eyecream, etc
don't be lazy okay?! :D
[ skin-care $.$ bu ke yi sheng de!! ]
& currently i like that "SONY" T-900 :( it's been quite sometime;
but, will it be kinda of waste money hur?!
i'm still sorta confused " where shd i celebrate my 21st b'day " =/
i want a job too! i want my car license ! i want so many THINGS..!!
& most impt is " i want trim my frige luhs "

yesterday after the chalet, we're supposed to catch a movie @ T.B ( th-orphan)
everything was nicely plan * while waiting for shan& melvin to come..
we went to arcade & play..
challenge with that noob TK.ZL :x (initial d )

baby snap this pic , while me & roy were playing HD4..
he took his gun so high, it's bcus firstly his tall, 2nd
he tells me that don't have censor lei ._. LOL
cannot shoot ! alamak , his so funny..
& sadly bf & roy went to watch the movie; cus shan & melvin quarrel
and he left, leaving her alone -.-
she has no mood to watch the movie at all * so we sat outside
UOB, smoked & hear her out.. 2 freaking hours my st0mach was
so hungry =/ cus, i dint ate much during jennifer buffet;
sighs, wasted the tix money! but it's okay ._.
roy & us went to have supper nearby red hill;
stay over at bf house & acc him back to his camp in the noon..
u took the risk just to accompany me.. thanks baby! x3
i miss you so much :(
when can u don't be sucha sleepyhead..
sighs!

giving up does not mean u're weak, it means u're strong enuf to let go *



Saturday, August 8, 2009

PART- i

ღ random pictures ღ
dine @ CENTRAL with
" eileen, cat , shan , melvin & bf "

eileen caught this 2 mickey mouse for me
she's lucky that her 1st try was successful,
but mickey was hard to catch* & failed several times
but she dint gave up & now i got a pair
thanks girl (:
steamboat at Chinatown..
not advisable for me to go " buffet/ steamboat"
unless at home` i can't eat much & waste money!!
that day, i ate only crabmeat, meatballs & fishcake -.-mel drove us to east coast " bowling " & "pool"
i asked baby to let me try 1 round & i think
his thinking was " sure go drain" but i strike :)
went over to baby's friend "Cheryl" 20th b'day party..
dint drink much that day, cus my throat is unwell;
his fren den drove us to "roll & bowl " hah..
x silly boy x we watched the movie " GI JOE & where got ghost "
both rate 2.5/5 i don't think is nice la -.-
aftermath, we went to have supper at "bugis" area
open till 6am!` i like bf dressing on that day ( matured) x3
& both of us wore "red" bcus it's national day! hah..
but still i don't like S.G =.= (ham & sausage spagetti)( steak ) ( mango prawn roll )( he did this for me, on our 4th month anniversary) & a card; boy, ur really sweet x3
thanks for making an effort to do this for me!
& it's so last min at ur house *
met up with " Jocee & Dan " @ suntec- ms last thursday
sis must have felt so relieved after her last paper that day :)
& dan bought us to " katong " ( k-sessions)
their rates are reasonable!! & worth singing at there *
baby came & join us around 6.. after tat we went to eat
katong laksa ^^





Thursday, August 6, 2009

finally

went to touch-up my tattoo last week
( the outline)
( colour change ) it's kinda of hurtful ; cus my skin
has yet to recover & i went to ink it =/

but i'm happy tat it looks more better now;
compare to the previous * it's worth the pain..
thanks baby (:(previously)


( melvin drove us to Changi last week, & it's really a relaxing place )
we had our dinner; facing the sea`opposite the city is M'sia;
cool air breeze.. good place for heart-to heart talk..
& some alcohol & k-session* at the 2nd level *
(random shots) (some updates) back 1 week

- waraku with eileen, cat , shan , melvin & bf @ clarke quay;
- bought a new top :)
- mustafa at night
- raining bar last weekend
- chatted with mabeline* outside R.B; smoked 3 sticks,
& the next day my throat hurts badly :(
- buffet with roy, shan, melvin & bf at JP ( seriously, not worth $30)
i could have eat smthg better than that ._.
i'm not going to that restaurant again *
- interviews ( hopefully i get a job soon)
- bf cook for me cheese hotdog prata` so sweet of him x3 thanks dear..
i know it's ur first time cooking for ppl rite? it's nice anw, 9/10
- baby order pizza hut delivery ytd*
- pedicure & manicure..
- bugis with eileen & bf
- acc eileen to amk hub & met up with joanne aftermaths;
- pepper lunch with mum& baby..
- took out 1 of my ear hole, it's badly swollen :(
- gaming with b.f + roy
- etc etc...

i'm so sleepy, i shell stop here* update soon!
( TK.ZL is now dota-ing while we're both webcaming each another)
serious face u have' boy :x
i love u honey bunny !!

i'm still sick, cough like nobody business* holy !!